Eva & The City

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Hilton

woah..what a nite;) started out just like any other wed nite..working and all...
then one of my pretty cust decided to kidnapped me to Zeta Bar in Hilton Hotel..ahaha..
i agreed to go..since is my first....and my boss was really nice..let me out 1 half hours early from work to go partying..ahaha...of course i'm supposedly out with cust to network and be a good Business Exec lar..hahaha.

well..anyway..Hilton really brought back some memories..remembered being there for a wedding. it was a beautiful wedding. but what was more beautiful was the fact that i was there with someone i love watching the union between a happy couple. i remembered watchin world cup too at the lounge after the wedding..it was all so lovely..i even have a poloroid shot kept in my purse to remind me of that nite.

oh well..things are different tonite. out with a bunch of happenin, sassy ladies..havin some drinks and dance together. it was nice. but would have been so much better if i had that special someone to dance with.

Friday, December 08, 2006

the return

wow..is been awhile...3 mths me thinks...but it felt like the longest 3 mths ever. i was way down, down, down in the dumps since the break up with A. could not bring myself to do anything i love. in these 3 mths, i can't help but replay that sad nite in my mind..looking back at photos, letters, gifts and all the sweet memories... tears shed..the sleepless nites...finding means and ways to meet up with A..thinking of him til it nearly drove me crazy...going out til late nites...working to escape the pain...doing things i would never have done...all in the name of love, so it seems. so..today..after some sanity has returned, i questioned myself: was it all worth it? and the answer, of course, is a big capital NO. yes..no doubt heartbreaks need moaning, crying, male bashing, self bashing time..but u've to know when to get out of it..if not..u'll just drown in ur own misery. there's just too much good stuff in life to miss out on. i must say that i've learnt some valuable and priceless things from this relationship and from the break up...though the price paid was huge..hopefully it'll help me in my next relationship. although i'm still on the road to recovery, time will definitely mend this broken heart.

and for the last time....for i'll say this no more.." thanks for the 1yr and 8mths, A. though we had our ups and downs, i'll choose to remember only the beautiful memories. i've never loved a man the way that i've loved u. but i guess is fate that we ended up this way. we could have been great together. "

there...that's the ending of another chapter of my life. but a start of a new one;)

*as they say..smile..because u never know who is falling in love with your smile*