Eva & The City

Friday, December 08, 2006

the return

wow..is been awhile...3 mths me thinks...but it felt like the longest 3 mths ever. i was way down, down, down in the dumps since the break up with A. could not bring myself to do anything i love. in these 3 mths, i can't help but replay that sad nite in my mind..looking back at photos, letters, gifts and all the sweet memories... tears shed..the sleepless nites...finding means and ways to meet up with A..thinking of him til it nearly drove me crazy...going out til late nites...working to escape the pain...doing things i would never have done...all in the name of love, so it seems. so..today..after some sanity has returned, i questioned myself: was it all worth it? and the answer, of course, is a big capital NO. yes..no doubt heartbreaks need moaning, crying, male bashing, self bashing time..but u've to know when to get out of it..if not..u'll just drown in ur own misery. there's just too much good stuff in life to miss out on. i must say that i've learnt some valuable and priceless things from this relationship and from the break up...though the price paid was huge..hopefully it'll help me in my next relationship. although i'm still on the road to recovery, time will definitely mend this broken heart.

and for the last time....for i'll say this no more.." thanks for the 1yr and 8mths, A. though we had our ups and downs, i'll choose to remember only the beautiful memories. i've never loved a man the way that i've loved u. but i guess is fate that we ended up this way. we could have been great together. "

there...that's the ending of another chapter of my life. but a start of a new one;)

*as they say..smile..because u never know who is falling in love with your smile*

1 Comments:

  • At 11:18 AM, Blogger Benjamin said…

    i feel what you feel there, its good to know that you sanity has return.Sometimes relationships are really funny...they make you feel on top of the world when you in it..then it tears you down to pieces and takes everything and even more away from you...you end up losing even more then you gain.but thats till when you are sober enough to think back and realise you gain a valueble lesson in life and may have just improve yourself in alot of other ways,im not sure what have you gone through but i felt ive gone a lil stronger tho i claim i am alot weaker then i was initially.i may not have the longest relationship in the world but i do know what love is.reading you post just reminds me alot about the things ive gone through, but i should say..be bless and thankful you are not going through this hardship without having your parents or friends around you.sorry if i said something to offend you..was just trying to help.take care

     

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